neuroses

I feel far better these days than I knew was possible a few years ago.

That said, I'm not out of the woods yet.

Did you ever feel like people were doing you a favor by being with you? Or duck out of a situation because you thought you knew that nobody wanted you there, anyway? Did you give up a perfectly good day of relaxing outside with friends to stay in and do nothing, just because of some unnamed fear?

I'm better about this now, but it doesn't change the fact that sometimes I get sucked down without even realizing it.

Think that may be happening now. Part of that is getting readjusted to NYC, sure. And part of it is definitely the fact that my grandfather's cancer is not going well. Just trying to keep my head above the surface.